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Wednesday, March 02, 2005

thankyou

thankyou boon boon & chua for ur concern.
chua let's go running and gymming on thursday. boon boon u joining us?
boon boon, i've got something to tell you.
call you tonight? or u can call me after school and all.
ya? you too must cheer up.
i'm okay cause i've sorted out my thoughts. well kind of.
love you (:
thankyou lenny for the ice cream and i'm fine now. it's very nice. thanks for always being there to hear me whine and complain and rant about my problems.it's funny how you're always there to trying to cheer me up, and u never fail to.

jiajia. my pok pok. sigh. thankyou for always being there. whenever i need to talk to someone. you'll always be there to listen. even when it's about retarded things.or like the most trivial things. you're always there to reply my smses and pick up my calls. amazing lot of ups and downs and u were always there. to walk and talk with me round the track, told hold my hand, to give me a huge hug, to let me hug you, to stroll around school listening to me rant, to sit beside me and listen. just always being there to share everything with me. yah. i really thank God that i have you. and he gave jiajia to me to be my bestest buddy. chomp. (: i love you a whole lot jiajia. i really do.

God. i must admit that sometimes i really doubt myself and i doubt you. i'm sorry for ever doubting you. [purpose driven life book] "To mature your friendship, God will test it with periods of seeming separation- times when it feels as if he has bandoned or forgotten you". A test of faith, but i know, you will never leave me nor forsake me. it's just that when your presence isn't tangible, can't be felt, i tend to drift, drift about my life, doing what i have to do, and not seeking ur hand in it. it's terrible. and i feel terrible. because i need you reassurance in everything. and it sucks!!! lord i really miss you. i miss the times we could just sit and talk. when i could just talk to you and you will reply me. i miss the times when i could smile at every situation, be it good or bad, knowing that you will make whatever circumstances good anyhow. i've lost that faith trust and hope in you. and i want it back lord. i need to be able to live my life as a confident person, having my confidence in you, that you will guide me and make my ways right. lord i cannot continue drifting, i cannot just live my days wandering around. lord help me to trust in your unfailing love again.

[ Jude whispered ][ 11:59 AM ]

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